a support system

if there is one thing i've learned since joey was diagnosed with T1D, it's that the people you surround yourself with make all the difference... the support system you have, those people that step up to the plate with or even without being called upon can make an INCREDIBLE difference in small and huge ways !  that being said, i was glancing through my emails, looking for one back from medtronic for joey's pump/cgm stuff, and this is what i found instead!!!

Wow!  now i'm a little stressed about trying to find time to actually get a massage, but i know i will have forgotten all about that stress once i'm there :)  and by the way, i've only even gotten 2 massages before in my life!  Thank you again to whomever gave me this (laura, and others i don't know)  i'm so grateful!

the angry phase...

so i know grief has it's phases... and i am mourning and i am incredibly angry.... for joey, for me, for our family, for innocence lost, for pain gained, for scary highs and even scarier lows...

i am mourning the loss of a carefree childhood.  i am mourning the continuous pain i have to inflict upon my daughter in order to save her life....

and i am beyond pissed, and f-our letter word angry, and really confused as to why this happens to innocent sweet children.  i have tried to maintain a positive outlook, i still try to maintain one... but inside i'm absolutely livid.

that is me being real... and i'm sorry it's not coated in flowers and smiley faces, but i put a good face on most of the time, and today, tonite.... i am just being honest... and honest is angry